i should not post things after drinking wine.

Self-indulgent, attention seeking, whining, probing, bitching and cowardly, whatever happened to confrontation?

In essence, I don’t like blogs, (BUT THIS IS PRIVATE SO ITS FINE). Stupid bloody internet. I keep thinking to myself that it’s something that I need to do, to make me stronger. I know people think I’m a slut/slag/whore/bitch/shag-rag, whatever, and that’s fair, I’ve fucked up enough to deserve that. But I refuse to subscribe to anything like Formspring, people I know are a lot stronger than I am and can take it, just knowing it doesn’t matter, but I’m not strong enough for anonymous comments, from strangers yes fine, but at the end of the day any comments bringing me down are most likely to be from people that know me and that I see round day to day, that’s more hurtful than a complete stranger. I made Liam delete the joint account he made for us, I think its unnecessary, yes I’ve done things I regretted, I’m paying for them, and people can have their opinions but just don’t talk to me if you don’t like me, I’m not bothered anymore.
I’m just not a fan of endless insults, I’ve learnt from my mistakes, if you don’t believe this, once again fair enough, but I’ll prove you wrong. and yes judge me, but on who I am rather than the mistakes I’ve made, I’ve heard a few people from uni hate me, and that’s no loss to me, the thing that bothers me is that they’ve never spoken to me for more than five minutes. Everyone will think what you will, but I’m young, we all are, we are always learning. You will fuck up and regret it, and if you take this judgement on me then I hope people take the same judgement on you when you make your mistakes, it will happen. I know shit I’ve done, and I’ve taken enough punishment and guilt for it, mostly in my own head, I ignore it now, because I can’t take anymore.